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2009-12-09T09:48:00.000+08:00

Literary 恋字迷宫 - 想回到黑白时代的我……

文：陈思敏

小时候，我的世界里只有黑和白、只有是和不是、只有要和不要，一切都是那么的单纯简单。
但是，傻傻的我却一直往这个黑白的世界涂上颜色。红色，青色，紫色，蓝色……慢慢地，随着岁月的流逝，我的世界变得越来越缤纷亮丽，我也越来越多顾虑了。
顾虑他人对自己的想法，顾虑自己对他人的看法，顾虑自己所作所为是否符合“常人”的作风等等……这样生活，真的会觉得透不过气。有时，真羡慕那些能实现自己想法的人。
就如前几天看到一个关于“虎人”的报道。这位“虎人”为了让自己成为处处都想老虎的人，不停地打造自己，让自己成为一位真正的“虎人”。
他的脸受过数次的整容，身体也纹上老虎的线条，为了就是让自己的五官更像老虎。他甚至还把自己的牙齿磨得像老虎的一样。也许，在许多人的眼里，这位“虎人”已经爱虎成痴了，但至少他敢于追寻自己的梦想的人。这也是许多人一辈子都无法做到的事，是不？

:D :D :D
I PASS MY TP! YAY!

2009-09-27T23:04:00.001+08:00

I miss you!

Hahaha, anytime soon! :D
When can you make it?

2009-09-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

When can we meet up again?

Our Makan Place date! hee, looking forward to that.

2009-09-11T10:27:00.001+08:00

HELLO SZEMIAN!

WENFANG MISSES SZEMIAN ALOT ALOT.
WENFANG MISSES ALL THE LETTERS THAT WE USED TO EXCHANGE DURING SECONDARY SCHOOL DAYS.
WENFANG MISSES ALL THE HTHT (HEART TO HEART TALK) WE HAVE.
WENFANG MISSES THE DAYS, WHEN WE'RE SO SO CLOSE!
WENFANG MISSES THE TIMES WHEN I CAN ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, WHEN YOU FEEL THAT THE WORLD IS A BAD NAUGTHY ONE.
WENFANG MISSES THE DAYS WHEN SHE ALWAYS DIAL YOUR NUMBER, AND CHITCHAT FOR THE WHOLE LONG PERIOD.
WENFANG MISSES EVERYTHING!

(: (:

XOXO,
WENFANG

2009-09-02T14:46:00.000+08:00

Hello dear! (: Thanks alot. I love you, really really. :D
Mega loads of love!

Here's a quote to share with my special friend, Szemian!

Every person is born with a calling. It is your task to discover what that
calling is, and find a way to make that calling a reality.
-Lucy MacDonald.

Dear bffl, it's your graduating year this coming semester, &the school term had just started.
It might gets weary, &you might get too tired to continue anymore. But just endure! :D Things will be over soon &you'll reap your well deserved results, just like how people used to say: "When the storm's over, there'll be rainbow awaiting.":D

So, jiayou! :D
I dare not pray and promise you that life will be a bed of roses. What i would wna promise you is, that you'll definitely have what it takes to overcome all the difficulties &obstacles, &me, Chia Wenfang, will always be there for you, if you ever ever need one person to give you that extra push in life! :D

I love you, sweets!

2009-08-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

力量罗志祥

想念长了翅膀
他跟着我流浪
独自背着行囊
看着人来人往
躺在陌生的床
眼睛没办法合上
想着这些年过了一关又一关
也许我太逞强
但是我无时无刻都在想
你的臂弯

给我力量陪我闯荡
也许我们都不讲
把爱留在我的心上
超越了太多梦想
时光匆忙不曾遗忘
随时可以回头看那些时光
你在身旁给我的温暖
yeah…

也许我来不及讲
你给的爱放在心上
陪伴着每个夜晚
有天可以回头看那些时光
你在身旁忘记了悲伤
yeah oh…

为了面对这不熟悉的环境，也许你最需要的勇气。
为了适应这陌生的一切，或许你最需要的是力量。

有位朋友曾在我需要力量时，让我听这首歌。
它安慰了我。
希望它也能让你心中产生那一点点的勇气，陪伴你走过这一切的一切。

:)

未来的日子还很长，加油！

2009-08-31T22:49:00.001+08:00

Hello dearr. I've been fine recently. (: Nothing much happened in my life to make me exceptionally sad. But nothing much to make me exceptionally happy either.
Life's pretty much boring for me. I was enjoying the freedom &silence in my life, which i have yet to enjoy for a really long time. But then, it's scary to see how it grows on me. Now, i'm becoming a person who dislike going out. ): Oh n. Save me, by dating me soon! :D
How about you?（（：
How have you been recently? :D Oh dear, school's starting hur! Eggcited for you, more eggcited at the fact that we can lunch tgt/take bus home tgt! If our timing allows! :D
♥

有你这个朋友真好。
今晚的我有一点伤感，已经好久没有这种感觉了，所以有一点不知所措。
但我来到我们的blog，发现有你的post，突然间我发现“有你这个朋友真好。” (:
谢谢你。至少，伤感已经减少了一半了吧！
晚安! ♥

2009-08-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

"Whenever you got angry for a minute, you lost 60 seconds of happiness..."

Have you been happy these few days?
:)

2009-07-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

Meeting on thursday! <3>

I suddenly feel so #%&@&&*. ):
I wna feel hyper and eggcited over orientation man, but i cant!
I really love love love to meet new friends! But i really hate hate hate orientations. ): Bahhh.

Makes me go back to the mood of "i-miss-fairfield".
I wna go back to fairfield's good ol' days. Rmbr 2C? (: Needlework room! :D
Rmbr those letters exchanged? Rmbr sec 1 break times? ((:
I miss i miss!

2009-07-02T10:37:00.002+08:00

Dearest Bffl,
Remember this song, "God will make a way"?
Love,
Bffl.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

You said, take things easy, and life will get better.
I'm going to learn to do that. You'll give me strength, right? (:

Miss you loads loads! 3 more days! <3

2009-06-26T10:52:00.003+08:00

Bffl! :D Hurry come backkkkk!

I was pretty happy happy happy over the past few days. but then suddenly, something happened,. and now i feel so ugh. D:
How come some people thinks only for themselves? The whole world doesn't contain them only right! Then why they so selfish? ): They demand everything, yet when ask for something, they dwant to give up anything! Wrahhh! ):
Bite them arh!
):
I miss you! I wna tell you everything!
I written some stuff into the book already, but im afraid you cant read my handwriting. (hee!) So hurry come back! I can tell you, and show you how worked up i am, with my facial expressions + actions! ): ):
Im hungry now! I wna have DTF with youuu!

Misses misses! <3

2009-06-07T11:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!
I've sent a msg to your china no, but i doubt you can receive it. D:

BOOHOO. D:

Thank you for being my pillar of strength and support for the last few 7 years, and of cos, it's still counting! (:
Thank you, for always being there for me, even though i may be a pain in the ass sometimes! (:
Thank you, for never ever giving up on me, for being so ever true and patient to me! (:
Thank you, for being the one who held our her hands to me, when the rest of the world seems to be turning their backs to me! (:
Thank you, for being the only one who's willing to guide me through the darkness andfind the light together, when the rest of the world rushes out to find the light themselves! (:
Thank you, for being willing to take off your mask and show me the true you, when the rest of the world try to hide themselves silly, beneath that thousands of ugly masks! (:
Thank you, for always trying to plant a smile on my face no matter how bad the stuff around us are! (:
Thank you, for always being there to lend an assuring handgrip, when the whole world seems to be doubting me! (:

And thank you, for simply being szemian. (:

Happy birthday! <3>
May all your wishes come true! ((: Can't wait for you to be backkkkk!

2009-06-03T16:52:00.000+08:00

Hello bffl! (:
Realised I've been neglecting this blog since you told me you can't access blogs in China. Even though you mentioned you're able to crack open the curse and access blogger again, i still haven't been updating here. SO SORRY!
It doesn't mean my love for you reduced over the days/months or smth okay? Quit those wild guesses. (: I'm just a little bored in blogging. Heehee, you can see that I haven't been blogging much in my 2 other blogs! (:

Man, i really miss you!
It's June of 2009 already. Almost half of this year has been gone already. ): And most of this time, you weren't here in singapore, neither were i in china with you. Wrahh.

Mm, days recently have been a little harder to survive, yet alot easier to survive.
Harder to survive, with you in China, and i can't meet up with you! ):
Harder to survive, because of the many problems and troubles i faced, and i had to face them alone. ):
Harder to survive, because i'm already nineteen, and i could literally feel the weight of all my responsibilities and the weight of the world on my shoulders. ):
Harder to survive, because i realised that i'm not only living for myself, but also for those who loce and care for me. There mgith be people who detest me, and hates me. But i can't deny the presence of dear ones, who enver gave up on me, no matter how lowly i've sank, and how bad i've turned into. These people includes my family, and of cos, darling you. (:
And of cos, harder to surive, because of the many weird and tough challenges not only life post me with, but i set for myself. Strange, but yes.

Many times, not just once, i just feel like throwing in the white towel, and giving up. but looking back, i saw all the hardwork that i've given in, and the support that people who loves me, and peopl whom i love, gave me. I decided it's time to be strong, and just move on in life. (:
Which apparently, i did. And surive til thus far. (:

But on the lighter note, there're still subjects which makes life now easier to pass.
Basically because, i've grown. (: Contradicts with the previous paragraphs, i know. But it's because of the fact that i've grown, that i realised the many responsibilities i have to shouldered, which makes me even more determined to survive through the shitz. Bringing disappointment to myself is hellish, i wouldn't dare imagine the same disappointment i have to bring my fmaily with. It's terrible.
No more playing with affairs of heart. Yeah, maybe previous few months, i've stumbled and tripped alot of times. But from this moment onwards, definitely no more. (: And i'm definitely proud to say that. I'm glad that before university life starts for me, i'm able to start afresh, in matters of heart. I'm just plain glad. Thanks for your love and concern, which really push me to the end of this tunnel til i see the light. All regrets, all lingers, nopes, i'm throwing them to the trash. (:
And realising that at the end of the day, i've such wonderful family by me. Never forsaking, never leaving my side. I'm truly grateful for them.
Awh, and of cos, sweets like you as well! (: it's amazing how we always stay this clsoe, through all the shit happening in each other's lives respectively. I'm really glad the one responsible had placed you in my life. (: maybe a handful of my friends aren't true. Or maybe the whole bunch of them aren't true. That idk, an di wish i dont have to know. One thing for sure, i know my bffl is true. Steadfast and true, always here for me. ((:

Recently, i'm back into redcross. Joined this camp/event in hq, which is going to keep me occupied all the saturdays until 20 june.
Other than this, no more new updates bout my life. ): Cos it's all boring. Work and home, work and home. Wrahhh.
Can i go china? (:

Wenfang misses you!

2009-05-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

I miss you alot! ):
WHY CHINA BAN BLOGGER?!
Wrahhhhh. D: D:

Dear girl! I know you haven't been in the best of moods today, due to whatever happened b/w you & _____. But it's okay dear! Have faith in everything, okay? I'm pretty sure everything will turn out fine! :D
Dont feel sad anymore, okay! Cos if you're still sad, you'll affect me, who is in singapore! D: &i'm sure you'll definitely affected the other party as well! (:

My brother's injured. HAHAHAH. I know i sound damn evil here, but seriously! Damn retarded lah he.
He's having blisters from all his soccer games, then he still continue to play basketball barefooted. Then now arh! He got a HUGE blister that's the size of half our palm at his foot.
Doesn't sound big, i know. BUT IT LOOKS ULTRA GROSS PUH-LEASE. D: Ugh!
Okay but gross-ness side, i still think he quite poor thing. ):

Thanks for hearing me rant about ____________. Hahaha, i also dk why suddenly will liddat.
Hopefully everything will be fine soon bah! (: Hope so, wish so! :D

Wah, WHY CHIAN BAN BLOGGER?! SO SIAN PLEASE.
And ebuddy can't chat with you also! ): Cos everytime we chat, the whole ebuddy just hang and i need to restart my com. ): Thank goodness for fb chat! Heehee.
:D :D
Thanks so much for listening to me rant on msn nowwww! :D Cos it really feel as though a heavy load is FINALLY off my chest! :D Able to breathe better now!
I hope you're not feeling suffocated too! :D Feel better and happier soon, dear! ((:
Tmr will be a new day! :D

Always loving you!
<3 Muacks!

2009-05-05T16:17:00.001+08:00

Hello dearest! ((:
Pretty postcard there! :D
Did you do that during your computer games class? Hahah. Kidding. ((:

How's China? Are y'all by any ways affected by the H1N1 virus, swine flu?
So annoying. ): Now my office, everyone who walks in must write down names &contacts &all.
But yeah, maybe i shouldn't complain hur? At least singapore is definitely playing it's role in trying to contain this virus. ((: Better safe than sorry what.
Hahah. But i'm down with flu lehhhh. ):
NOT SWINE FLU LAH! CHOY!
Hahah, but i caught some normal bugging flu bug somewhere. ): Which leaves my head spinning, &my nose running.
SO ANNOYING LAH. ):
I dont even dare to sneeze too much/too loud now! Cos i scare people in office will isolate me. Hahah. But it's so annoying lah. ): I finished the whole box of tissue paper on my desk. Now i'm tissue-less. D:

How are you?
haven been hearing much of you lately! Not ever your own blog! Hahah.
Has aunty left already? Or she's still in China with you?
Update me yeah? ((:

I finished bof since afew weeks ago. ((:
Jerry Yan is my eyecandy. Lee Min Ho (Gu Jun Pyo) is my heartcandy! :D :D

Heehee. Both of them acted as Dao Ming Si in the shows. In some ways, they really look alike! ((: I think they do look alike in some angels. But cos of the characters they played, they really look/behave alike more than usual. :D Hahah.
I'm stocking up videos/advertisements/mv of bof on my phone. So i'll have minho's company by me 24/7. Heehee. :D

Szemian! It's a must-watch okay! :D :D Really! :D

I miss you!
&i hate having fluuuuu. D:

/edited.
Wow telepathy again! :D I was blogging, while you just tagged. <3

2009-04-28T18:54:00.003+08:00

Princess oh princess :)

Did this during my new media class using photoshop just now. It's supposed to be 贺卡 but i ended up doing this! Lol. Specially dedicate this to you. Love you friend.

Will be away these few days when my mom's here in Wuhan. But i'll try update whenever I can! :) Cheers!

2009-04-28T15:49:00.003+08:00

Thankies bffl! :D
Really, really. ((: I was so touched when i received msges from you! :D

Yeah, birthday do feel weird without. ):
Come back soon! Then we can go jalan jalan, eat hotdog bun, etc etc. :D
Wheee. Muacks! ((:

So, how's everything recently?
Stop laughing at your poor teacher okay! So bad lah you!
Hahah. although the swan = sauna thing is really quite comical. Heehee.

Why aunty never bring me over! ): Please tell her i'm sad, but i will still love you &her. :D

All the best for your presentation tmr!
Muackies!

xoxo

2009-04-25T12:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
DARLING
CHIAWENFANG!

Though I can't be the first to wish you happy birthday thru sms, or phone, or facebook, or msn, but at least I can be the first to wish you HAPPYBIRTHDAY in bffl-us.blogspot.com! haha! 得意^^
Oh ya! In case you are still wondering who msg-d you that long birthday msg with that long long weird weird number, that should be me! haha :)
It feels kinda weird not celebrating your 19th birthday with you this year. But i'll make up for you when I get back Sg!
Sigh, normally we'll at least go for a meal or something tgt, but this year..
SIGH!
Lols. Nevertheless, I hope you're enjoying yourself back there in Sg! Love Love! Enjoy your day darling! :)

2009-04-22T10:43:00.000+08:00

Hello dear! (:
Sorry for not blogging in here recently.
My life's been pretty much mundane, dead, &boring. ): haha, nolah. Not that bad actually. I've been caught up with too many drama. Too much drama-rama makes my life fulfilling &exciting this second, but the next second, it leave me hanging on a thread, feeling empty &wanting more. So annoying. :\
Have you caught epi 10 of ToGetHer yet? Ohmy, the scene is so mega touching, when Mars thought of his mummy, &so mega sweet when he said those honey words to momo. :D Wah, whee man! I want! ): Haha.
I caught Delightful Girl Chun Hyang. For the first few epi, you start laughing. Then towards the middle of the show, you'll start crying &crying &crying. ): But towards the end, you'll start hating those baddies in the show, for separating them &all. Hahah. pretty nice show though. ((: The typical happy endings which i love! <3> You should catch it too! :D

So how's your beijing trip? :D I haven exactly heard much from you regarding it. Oh, except for the few grudges you blogged on your blog! Hahah.
Tell me &share with me what's going on in your life yeah? ((:

Wah, why mel liddat! Hahah, or maybe he wants an eye for an eye? Like you didn't want him to send you off, now he's doing the same to you. But of cos, no hard feelings i guess. Maybe he just wna let you feel this way, to have a taste of how he is feeling? Haha. yeah i agree long distance relationships is tough. Well, not that i've been through one before! But i just feel that it's really tough maintaining one. But hey hey, tough doesnt mean impossible! ((: 70odd more days to go bffl! :D Jiayou! &you'll come home to see your family &me with open arms! :D hahah, as for mel, maybe he wouldn't even wait for your with open arms. He will just go straight to you, &give you a warm tight hug already!

I'll be working til july! Right before uni life starts to unfold i guess.
Oh speaking of work. Walao! They have the lunch reception thing this afternoon again. )): &i really dislike it! ): Wrahhh. But my relationship with my colleagues aren't exactly stagnant. I begin to chat a little with the colleagues around me actually. Haha, which is good! (: I guess. Heehee.

Hahah, the partner whom i'll complain about cramps isn't the one you're thinking about! Not him, not him. Hahah, it's during sec 3/4! You confirm plus chop know it's who, right? Lol.
Out of the window? Maybe not yet, not fully completely. But i'm sure he's already sitting by the window ledge. I just need some more time, before he could be completely out of the window. Haha. (: &i'm sure this time round, it'll succeed!
&then i'll start the new chapter of life afresh. (: No good to keep on hanging onto a breakable thread, right? (: But of cos, afresh doent mean without the ol' friends, &certainly not with you! :D

73 more days.
I'm staying strong.
&i've faith in you. You'll stay strong, &finish this chapter of your life strong too!
73 more days! <3 Muackies, dear!

2009-04-20T20:22:00.004+08:00

這一生中，你錯過了什麼？

太太在二十五歲時問丈夫，
丈夫沮喪的回答她：我錯過一個新的工作機會。
三十五歲時，丈夫生氣的告訴她：我剛錯過了一班公車。
四十五歲時，丈夫傷心的說：我錯過與親人見最後一面。
五十五歲時，丈夫失望的回答：我錯過了退休的好時機。
六十五歲時，丈夫匆匆的答說：我錯過了看牙醫的時間。
一如往常的，太太總是回以微笑，而微笑中總帶著落寞。
七十五歲那年，太太不再問先生了，此時，先生正跪坐在病危的太太面前，想起太太每隔一段時間，總要問他的問題，他反過來問太太，而太太的微笑中帶著解脫回答：這一生，我沒有錯過你！
此時，先生早已淚流滿面，原以為兩人可以永遠在一起，所以，終日忙著工作與繁瑣的事，卻從不曾用心體貼朝夕相處的另一半，先生緊抱著太太說：這輩子，我錯過妳五十年來的深情……繁忙的都市裡，有著許多為工作打拚的人，大家總習慣於把工作當成生活的重心，為了滿足社會的價值，不惜出賣自己的時間與身體，捨不得多花時間投資健康，以至於錯過了陪同孩子成長的機會、忽略了身旁關心自己的親友、輕忽了自己的身體。
珍惜，果真要在錯過後才能感受？
沒有人知道明年今日會怎麼？
人世無常，趕緊把握當下，把心中的感激告訴愛你的人、用行動關心你的家人，把每一天都當成人生的最後一段，即使走了，也能讓自己及身旁的人了無遺憾。
我想我或許也有錯過了些什麼，但是要珍惜已擁有的更重要。

我不想错过后才后悔。
我只想对你说，真庆幸小六那年我没错过你。

2009-04-20T00:06:00.007+08:00

Fang, 你还好吧？

Your nottie cramps should be gone by now ba! Remember to drink lots of red bean soup ok? :) don't know why too but that's what melvin always tell me to do each time I pms or come my period. And I can sense mine's coming soon. Shoosh~

ehh.. Him whom you can complain to each time you have cramp, hmm.. is it ___?

haha! just curious. Anyway, nv heard you talking about him these few days le. is he out of the window ler? If yes, I'm glad for you! If no, I'll be here for u. Lend you my ears~

Ehh, Me and mel ah.. Lols. Hard to say lei.

All I can say it's quite difficult to maintain long distance relationship lo. It's not like in the past where I can see him whenever I like, or scold him right in his face and stuff. I really miss him lo, but even if I tell him that I miss him or what, he don't seems to get it like how much I really missed him. So it's quite o.O booboo for me. haha.

And and! yesterday I asked him if he want me to send him off when he go into NS and guess his answer?! he said NO! Wth. o.O + O.o booboo + BIG booboo! :(

But I think I can pull thru this ba. Since one month plus went passed le and I'm still alive, I believe I can live thru this 74moredays de :) Cheer for me!

Till now, my strong front is still tough! Hope it'll last me till the end ba. kaka~

Even as I get so lonely thru the darkest night here, I've you beside me, isn't is? So same for you, I'm beside you, even now.. LoOk!

Tada! toldyouso! :D

You stay strong!

Me stay strong!

We stay strong! :)

Hmm, you'll be working till when? decided what's ur next path le? tell me about it!

Loves darling. Cheers!

2009-04-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

Friend, i'm dying from cramps. ):
I'm sorry for openly declaring this, but i'm really dying. ): Wrahh.
Weird, i used to have someone whom i can always msg &complain to him regarding cramps. I used to have this no i can contact when i'm suffering &dying from cramps. Hahah, but we drifted apart. Booboo. :\
Back to point. I'm dying in office now. I wouldn't be surprised if i were to drop dead on the ground now. D:

Mm, how's you &mel now? Dear, i really hope you'll pull through this hard times. Be it feeling lonely &having to contstantly put up the strong front, or having to face each day bravely despite the fear in your heart. Or even, the lonely days/nights you're going through even though you have your friends' company. Dear, i really hope you'll pull through all this. (:
80 days isn't short. But it's definitely shorter than 100 odd days! :D 20odd days down already!
Jiayou, jiayou! :D

Yeah i guess. We hate changes, yet anticipate them at the same time.
It's an irony, &a contradiction. But life itself, is a contradiction, isn't it? (: Just like the cliche saying that goes, "we're all living to die."
But yeah, changes will definitely pop out in our lives, once in awhile. No matter how much we loathe them.
Like how much girls hate periods, but they still visit us every once in a month. I'M SORRY BOUT HARPING ABOUT THIS PERIOD THING, BUT THE CRAMPS IS REALLY KILLING ME WHAT! D:
Haha, back to point. (: Since we're stuck with changes being present in our lives. Let's face up to it, &live well with it! (:
Cos' i've faith in myself that i'm able to survive it, one way or another. &you too! My faith in you has never decreased/reduced, or whatsoever. :D
So stay strong, my dear girl. ((:
Jiayou!

2009-04-13T10:34:00.006+08:00

朋友，这段时间冷落了你，真不好意思。
这几天，我班一直疯狂“终极密码”，中奖的人不吃怪怪的东西，而是玩“真心话大冒险”。当然，懒得做大冒险的我，总是选择真心话。我那班对我的‘恋情’蛮感兴趣，我也很乐意分享。但过后，一大堆回忆总会把我的脑子挤得水泄不通。

回忆是美好的，
因为我们只记得美好的回忆。
就因为有了这些美好的回忆，
我们会一直想要活在过去。
但是，当时的我们并不知道自己有多幸福。

我个人也不大喜欢改变。
我曾想过，也许在不久的将来的我应该会找一份安分守己的工作吧！
因为我心脏不能承受太大的刺激。:)
因为，我害怕新事物。
因为，我害怕改变。

你也知道，身为双子座的我生来的个性就是矛盾。
也许和你一样，在心底的深处，我是期待改变的。
昨天晚上我班为我的朋友庆祝生日。我们给她一个birthday surprise！
她感动得哭了。
有时，意想不到的事也不一定的坏事，是不？:)

Glad that you're enjoying yourself back there! Life's good yea?
81daysmore.

2009-04-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

HEY CHIAWENFANG!
I'm back from Beijing le! :) Missed me? I know you definitely will~
Will update about my life here soon.
Gotta settle down some stuffs like washing laundry all that first, if not i no more clothes to wear le., and my assignments (It's like I've 4assignments due next week? O.o)
Boohoo :(
Stay tune for my updates!
Miss you!
<3

2009-04-06T10:35:00.002+08:00

Hello dear! I hope you're enjoying every single bits of beijing right now. (:
Enjoy something, anything, &everything! :D

Some updates of my life:
1) Boring. ):
2) Out with different groups of friends on sat.
3) Treated to topless 5 at swensens by my friends; uncle &daddy!
4) Can't wait for good friday!
5) Can't wait for the sat after good friday too!
6) I wna eat sushi.
7) My craving for sushi has been lurking around myself since a week ago. ): I think it's for real this time round.
8) I miss you!
9) I sense the dreadful fear again, now that it's April. ):
10) I'm having a tummyache now. ): Must be the sardine bun + milk breakfast that i had.

Oh bummer. Hello szemian! So how's everything?
Is your feelings slightly more settled down? &are you feeling slightly more cheer up &not so upset alr? (: I really hope you'll be fine, okay?
89 more days to go!
89 days are long. ): Too long for my comfort. But i know when you're back, the 100 odd days wouldn't have made any impact on both of us. Right right?
Muacks! Miss you!

2009-04-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

Damn those politicians!
Heehee. I'm just kidding about that statement.
Mm, yknow. Sometimes i think i'm a contradiction myself. I hate changes, like totally absolutely. But somehow, a small part of me actually anticipate changes.
Cos changes usually bring about challenges, &i love them! (: Especially when i'm able to overcome them. :D
Hahah. Okay, that aside. The bigger part of me still wins. I'd rather have everything remain in their original positions. (: No changes. Heh. ;D

Oh, i complained to mars already! (: He's such a sweetie. He said good things are always worth the wait! So he said, every monday, one new episode will be uploaded online. Hahah, such a cutie too, hur? :D

Not 小富婆 lor. Still must wait until a few thousand years later. Wait, by then maybe not even 小富婆 still. Become 老巫婆 already arh! Hahah.

Work's been crazy these few days, i tell you! ):
My supervisor's hospitalised recently, but now she's back home resting already.
Then there're so many datelines to meet! Goodness! ): Wrahh. But well, at least busy at work beats nth to do at work! Hahah, at least i get to busy-fy myself. (: Lol.
How's life in china recently? You haven been sharing with me the little things happen in your life over there! ): Hah, still got those frequent blackouts? Or have y'all gotten so used to it, that if one day there isn't blackout, y'all would be truly surprised? ;D

93 more days &counting down!

2009-03-29T12:15:00.002+08:00

:) But so many people are after 'changes', esp the politicians. aren't they?

All I can say if it's already proven that life can't remain the way they are, then let's accept that it's gonna change someday&somehow ba.
Things might change for the worse, or for better. But let's just hope it'll change for better ba. of cos besides hoping, we'll have to make sure it comes true! :)

Omg! in that photo, 默默's a lucky girl!! lol.
I guess it's faster if you complain directly at mars. haha. 全靠你了！

Yep! No worries. Anything you can just escape to my cosy home ba!
'cos TASZEMIAN will always be here.

Congrats to ChiaWenFang for passing her SFA!
It's not that bad right? Doing something you love instead of just doing those bored desk work.
Are you earning alot now? 小富婆了？

hmm, lemme see. Class gathering. So the ___ was there too?
Hoho~ you have things to tell me right? :P

we're left with 96moredays to our hotdogbun date!

Thnks bffl! ♥

2009-03-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

HOW'S YOUR THROAT?!
&i suppose your presentation went well. (: Glad to hear that!
Hahah. Yeah, i guess. Afterall, it's true when everyone else tells u that 'Change is the only Constant thing present'. Sounds uber contradicting, but take another look at this statement, it makes alot of sense.
But dear, if given a chance, i'd still much rather give up everything i have now, to just return to the past. I miss everything we shared in the past. Those friendships that are so dear to our hearts, those moments which only we shared, &the many many memories forged. (: I held them too dear to me already, that's why when some of us drifted apart, &started to disappear from one another's life, i took it really hard. ):
I hate Changes. I really do.
But well, in anyways. I'm just really glad you stood by me all the times. (: Sure, there're moments when we felt that we're drifting apart, we might not contact each other as often as previously due to the different lifestyles we're having, &whatsoever. But i'm just still glad that we never forget each other! :D
Thanks for everything!

Zohmyg! :D :D :D Heehee.
Yeah, i agree! It's uploading too slowly already. ):
Hurry, complain! Oh oh, or i can call mars on my phone, tell him to hurry air the show online! :D

Yay! Are you serious? :D
Which means next time, if i'm jobless &my parents start nagging at me to hurry get a boyf/job, i'll tell them 'Aye, szemian say she'll yang wo! So, no worries!' Okay, okay? :D

Bffl! :D Recently, i attended a SFA (Standard First Aid) course with chanel, it's a 3 day course, &just ended toady!
Walao, i sacrificed 3 days of work for it leh! &since my pay is determined by the number of hours i clocked in. It means, hundred over bucks gone! Hahah, oh dear! I didn't mean to sound so aunty, but really. :\
Oh, good thing is both of us passed! :D Wheee. Hahah, &we're attacking other FA-related courses as well. (:

I'm having a class gathering tmr! :D Okay, everytime it's Class Gathering in planning, but when it's the actualy gathering itself, it became just a Group one. :\ Well, but it's okay! At least i get to meet up with my classmates! (: (:
Can't wait for tmr, cos one of my classmate, bryan is botak! :D Hahah. Actually, that's the main reason why we're meeting up too! To see his botak head!
Aye, 98 more days! Then we can go eat hotdog bun already! :D Can't wait!

Thanks for your encouragement! :D
Do stick with me, til i'm really off the ride, okay? Cos i'm afraid i might turn weak anytime. ):

Jiayou to you too, bffl! :D
在中国的日子，也许是冷的，也许是孤独的，或也许是陌生的。
在你的心里，也许是寂寞的，也许的伤心的，或也许是安静的。
加油吧，陈思敏！
因为你不是一个人的。你一定要知道，在世界的一个角落，离中国满远的新加坡，有一个人正默默的陪伴着你。
她就是我！谢汶芳！：D
晚安！

2009-03-25T15:59:00.003+08:00

You're the best sweetie. :)
Ever you,
Ever me,
Ever us.

I just passed my first presentation here and I guess that should be the longest presentation I had so far in my 18+yrs of life. The whole presentation lasted for around 1hr30min!
That's cool!
And my throat sore like don't know what after the whole presentation. Lols. makes me just what to shuddup for the rest of the day.
It's weird presenting in a whole new surrounding (with weird weather), in a whole new classroom, in front this new teacher, in front some 'new' classmates. I guess i'm still under the process of getting used of new things.
And all these are just parts and parcel of life, isn't?
We can't stay stagnent in life forever. Life are like flowing river, ever-moving. We just have to keep moving, hoping for the better in life in future.
But between us, this is when the word "still" is useful..
"You're the still the one who popped up in my mind when i have some news to share. Your hp no is still the one i wish i could dial, to ask you out for hotdog bun, etc. :D &you're definitely still the one in my prayers, wishing you well &everything!"
:) I just love 'still'!

YES! I watched 'ToGetHer'!
hahaha! I don't like Mars! I like Jupiter! hehe.
I love ZhuangJunNan!
Very sian lo. I need wait for 1week then can wait online. Somemore still need wait for people to upload le then can watch!! sobs.
I'm now waiting for the DVD. Ask them faster show finish lei >.<
kaka~ :)

Most of the people here are nice lar, but i think they do things really quite slow lo. Sometimes, we have to wait 30min for a bowl of rice of noodles. Quite kua zhang.
It's like MOST of the people i see here smokes. Most of the time when i look out my room or when i'm on the road and look up, it's like the whole city is covered in dust. Really scary. So I don't know if I can really come back with unpolluted lungs, but i'll try :)

:) next time if you no boyf and no job, come squeeze with me in my tiny room ba!
I'll share my maggiemee with you, on good times with hotdog and on bad times with MSG.
No matter what also will have maggiemee and egg de k? :)
No fear!
I think you store up the egg and wait for me go back den pass to me ba. 'cos I don't think there's place for me to cook in my hostel room and as for the common kitchen, it's too dirty and scary for me to cook inside le, so forget it! XD

Jiayou sweetie. I believe you can and will overcome that ride one day.
Time can heal.
Anywhen i'm needed, just give me a shout. I'll be here.

Seeing the countdown timer counting down makes me happy too!
Looking for the day when the countdown timer strikes 00.00.00. :)

2009-03-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

I'm glad to hear that my words on this blog makes you smile. (:
This blog existed, not just for each of us to know that you're doing fine in China, &i'm surviving well in Singapore. Not only to let each other know of our existence.
But most importantly, i wish that my words could accompany you through those tough times &nights which seems impossible to pass. (: I hope my words bring you comfort &the care you needed. I hope my words could bring you the love that could warm you inside, despite the freezing cold weather over at your side. &definitely, i hope my words here could make you feel accompanied through those nights which might seem a little too long for comfort. (:
Jiayou, my friend. I might not be able to be there for you, accompanying you through this phase of your life. But rest assured, you're still always on my mind! (:
You're the still the one who popped up in my mind when i have some news to share. Your hp no is still the one i wish i could dial, to ask you out for hotdog bun, etc. :D &you're definitely still the one in my prayers, wishing you well &everything!

Dont ever worry about me forgetting you/your existence. Cos i really doubt that day will come! (:
Even if we drift apart, you'll still be remembered as my bffl &my twin who really understands me. :D
Hahah, &you are not allowed to forget me either! :D

Awh, you watched ToGetHer as well? ((:
I LOVE MARS! &MARS LOVE ME! Heehee.

Wow, im glad people over at your side are nice. But do they smoke alot? Heehee. Please come back to singapore with nice pretty un-polluted lungs, okayyyyy?
If not, i'll smuggle myself into china, whack all the smokers' asses! :D Okay, if that really happen, i'll need to be in china for a really long time! Judging by the no. of smokers in china. TSK.
How's the projects/assignments coming along? (: Able to cope with them so far?

Hahaha. aiyo. No hunks lehhhhhh. HOW? ):
If i really no boyf next time, will you still do the same to me when i didn't have a job? Hahah, you said you'll invite me to your house, you'll cook me maggie mee, &i'll sponsor the egg, right right right?
Oh yeah, speaking of that. Do you need me to mail eggs over for your maggie? :D Heh!

Enjoy the ride? I'm afraid it's a little hard to enjoy it.
No doubt i really love the peaks &joy it brought. But when i hit the rock bottom, i feel as though i'm being torn apart inside. :\ Which is terrible &horrible. ):
Okay, fine. I'm just glad i've taken one step off the ride already. (: Give me some more time, &give me the strength i need. I'm sure within days, i'm definitely completely off thie ride. Yay!
((: But thanks for all the company you've given me!

"You'll be there for me."
This i know. &these words, i could definitely count on you.
(:

Seeing the countdown timer ticking it's time away, makes me feel happy. :D
'Cos i know the day you're returning is sooner!

2009-03-22T10:05:00.002+08:00

因为有了你，我这一路走来才不是一人。
就算经过多少雨多少浪，
有过泪有过错，
我始终会记得人生这条路，我并非一人。

That's right chia. It seems like I've been in Wuhan here for 3weeks already.
There are times when I feel down and lonely, without someone's hug or any words of comfort.
But your words from www.bffl-us.blogspot.com always managed to create that smile on my face.
Thanks :)

Words from 爱就宅一起
也许离开他太久，我会慢慢地忘了与他在一起的感觉...

我曾经有过这种顾虑，害怕有一天我们这两位走着路上，擦肩而过却没有发现彼此的存在。希望我离开的这段4.5月的时间，我们不会忘了与彼此在一起的感觉好吗？:)

****
We not only can get water cut off, we can get power supply cut off too!!
How fantastic can that get? And it's like we got it cut off for the whole day from morning till night. Wow right? (guess you've already read my blog for more info.)
Fortunately, I still get to bathe and wash up at my friend's room. It seems like only their room's power supply seems to be working perfectly well. But gotta thanks them anyway! ^^
Yups we bathe with hot water. If not I will freeze each time I bathe lo. The cold water is really COLD.
Looks like you had great fun in China for that trip yea?
Our hostel teacher aren't that bad too. Generally speaking, the people here are mostly nice and friendly. It's just that their efficiency's quite slow. Finally realised how fast and furious Sg really is :P

I believe in whatever U you go, there'll be hunks waiting for you! Whether you realised it or not. So if you are really looking for guys there, just open your eyes wide and you'll spot one. :)
So have you made your final decision? what course will you be going for?

Sweetie, enjoy that emotional rollercoaster. How often do you get to ride it? and on a rollercoaster, it's not the sight-seeing that attracts people to ride it. It's the excitments and the heart attacks that it'll bring to you on the rollercoaster, isn't? :)
Whatever it is,
你一定要相信爱依然美丽
你一定不能放弃做梦的勇气
你看看我正在这里陪你等雨停
蒸发后的回忆总会变成水蒸气
I'll be here for you.

2009-03-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

這些年ㄧ個人
風也過雨也走
有過淚有過錯
還記得堅持什麼
真愛過才會懂
會寂漠會回首
終有夢終有你在心中

朋友一生一起走那些日子不在有
ㄧ句話ㄧ輩子ㄧ生情ㄧ杯酒
朋友不曾孤單過ㄧ聲朋友你會懂
還有傷還有痛還要走還有我

I miss you sweets! ♥

2009-03-16T09:51:00.000+08:00

Yay! :D
Chiawenfang VS Hotdogbuns.
Chiawenfang wins. :D :D

Lol, seriously! Aye, it sounds so old school, to have water supply cut off, &having to rush down to pay for the bills before y'all can have water again. So fun! :D Heehee!
Aye, wow! But you'll definitely become finanically more independent, hur? :D
Y'all bathe with hot water? The other time i went china trip with my school, we had to make do with the underground water, which was seriously icy cold. Okay, but we're still blessed kids.
1) We went when the weather is hot like shitz.
2) We always get to Q up for the hotwater at the waterpoint! &the school is really nice, cos they know we aren't used to bathing with icy cold water, so they helped us boil more water! :D
Speaking of hostel, i miss my hostel teacher. Hahaha.

Wah, your teachers are so nice! They're afraid y'all might be bored stiff with nth to do, &stiff-er with the weather &all! Haha, either that, or they're afraid that y'all might forget about their presense while they're back in singapore, so they gave y'all assignments.
So, to not make them forget your presence as well, send back those assignments to them! (:
Okay okay, dont go do that okay! Postage expensive! &who knows, they might send back more assignments. :\

I went all nus ntu &sim open houses already. &i'm pretty certain SIM doesn't offer the kind of environment i want to study in. Well, no offense meant here actually. I just don't think SIM will be the place for me.
But who knows, SIM might just be the only university i can ever get a slot in! D: Ahhhh.
Okay, by comparing these 3 universities, Nus is ranked first, then ntu, lastly SIM.
Heehee, i'm not talking about the academics/courses stuff actually.
I'm talking about the guys here! :D :D

Yeah i hope i can make the right choice too! :D Thankies!
&you! Yeah, i agree with what your friends say. (: (i read your blog).
Sure, this might just be the worst trip out of your experience in overseas trip, but you can never be able to deny that it'll definitely be an unforgettable trip!
&while you're there, knowing jolly well that you've to be there for at least 110 more days. Why not just make the best out of things? (: Wipe those teras &start facing each new days with smiles &joy. :D I'll give you joy &strength! If you can't sense them, i can even mail/fax the joy &strength over to you!
So, please continue smiling dearest friend. (: Make the best out of the time you're there. &i'm sure sure, at the end of this trip, it'll be one of the best trip you'll ever have. (:
Mm, okay, i'll take back my last sentence. How can a trip be the best, without chiawenfang around, right? :D :D Heehee!

But like a fool who will never see the truh
I keep thinking smth's gonna change.

These lyrics speaks how i feel.
Yeah, i guess you're right. Maybe i'm just waiting for _____ to be replaced. :\ But ahh, weird. I'm still suffocating in the position i am in now.
Emtional rollercoaster.
I want to get off. but i'm reluctant to do so. Because i got reminded of the pretty sights i can own when i'm at the peak &the top of the ride. But everytime i got reminded of the downs &ugly sights i have when i'm at the bottom of the ride, i feel like dying. D:

How about you?
How's everything b/w you &mel? Fine &nice, i hope. (:

&Dont cry already okay! (:
Treat every brand new day with a smile, my dear!

Loves!

2009-03-15T11:41:00.007+08:00

Lemme see..
hotdogbuns
chiawenfang?
hotdogbuns?
chiawenfang?
hotdogbuns?
chiawenfang?
hotdogbuns?
Without ChiaWenFang, the hotdogbuns won't taste the same. So of cos I'm missing ChiaWenFang more! :D

We don't exactly have to pay for the internet, but we need to pay for our electricity and water.
And, that day our water got cut off!
Luckily both me and my room mates finish bathing ler. haha.
HENG ah!
So immediately we went down to pay for our water lo. And just in case our electricity suddenly got 'chop', we paid 200yuan for our electricity. I estimate it'll only last us for 2weeks? o.O everything here so ex larr, everything need use dao my own money. So xintong! :(

And their internet here is quite not very good de. So if they still want us to pay for the internet, i think all of us will complain de lar! ('cos we're all typical Singaporeans ^^)
I'll be start tackling that pile of projects soon!
:) thanks for your strength.
I heard from my china teachers that it's np that requested the china teachers to give us more homework and projects la! :(( How could they do this! Sigh.

Thanks for that countdown timer!! :)
It really helps 'cos sometimes i tend to lose count of the days. hehe.
My friend like that countdown timer too lei! she ask you how to put. she want to put in her blog too! :D kaka.
Yups, i'll be counting down to the day we meet for ikeahotdogbun again! YayYay!

Hmm, nottie ChiaWenFang's heart.
How would u know paramedic won't be your path out if you haven't try it?
I'm not trying to rebel against your parents or what ok?(So if aunty or uncle see this post, don't scold TASZEMIAN ok :)) But i think for me, i'll prefer something that I've strong interest in.
:) I understand you want the best of both worlds, perhaps when you go for the U's open house, you'll see a course that strike that Xfactor in your heart AND hopefully, your parents will like it too!
Trust me, your parents will come to understand you de, 因为你是他们女儿啊!
Regarding why must we grow up, that's a very good question! :) 'cos I can't answer that too.
我只知道，成长是不能避免的。那我们也只好尽量去享受、体会、感受这个过程吧！
Facing the crossroad, the best way is to see which traffic light turn green first, then you can make your move le! If you're still stuck in the mud, let the water wash the mud off and move on ba! :) Believe that you made the right choice and you'll make things right.
JIAYOU CHIA!

Stubborn little girl.
If you prefer to leave the stones unturn, then throw the stupid stones out of the window. But be careful not to smash other windows wor! :)
You're like what this smallwoman in my class always say me: 矛盾.
I guess it's the best word to describe ChiaWenFang now.
If you chose to leave things as it is, questions not answered, then accept it.
Perhaps, you're just waiting for someone to come by and replaced that ____. Then you'll finally let ___ go. So now, don't hurry yourself to throw ____ out of the window. :) enjoy life, (saddist as it sounds).

I was crying last night, missing home missing you missing everything in singapore.
And the rashes on my hands makes the feeling in me worse.
But when I say your "But you gotta give me time, while i try to figure out how to smash winter. Lol!", it really makes me LOL can!
Thanks girl! :)
Because of the cold, I haven't been exploring the city of Wuhan much other than the shopping malls next to my hostel. Thankfully when the weather is warming up (but things are quite unpredictable here, the temperature will drop suddenly de), i'll take some times to visit the sights in Wuhan! :)
Hope something caught your eye today during NUS's openhouse!
Today's sunday so tmr's monday, like duh!(ok, I'm so lame till i'm talking to myself ler. XD)
Monday blues are coming.. I can feel that. :/ Can you?

2009-03-15T00:15:00.001+08:00

:D glad you blogged! Muackies!
Haha, seriously? Do you need to pay for the internet? I heard smth about paying to use the internet for this amount of time with the certain amoutn of money. Yes yes?
:D So what's your hostel address? Want me to mail smth over? So it'll be cool for you to receive a parcel from singapore! (:
Hahah, &jiayou my friend! I'll give you strenght to conquer those disgusting projects! (:
Finish them fast fast, then ask your teacher whether can you return home fast fast too? Heehee! :D Oh oh! I put up a countdown timer on the blog too! (:
Yay, counting down to the day when we both have our feets on this same island!
Wheeee!

Yups, it's nice! (: We just chated over dinner, &headed down for the swings to have more chats &games. Feel really nice.
I miss your company too! Aye, "Misses those times we had hotdog bun in ikea. Misses those hotdogbuns too. :(" What is this!
How can you miss me as much as you miss those hotdogbuns! D: You make me so sadddd!
Must say you miss me more, okay? :D Hahah!

Well, friend. I tried doing that, but somehow my hearts says it's confused too.
I've always wanted tobe a paramedic, to be involved in both healthcare sector &emergency. But i know that would definitely not be my path out, cos if i choose that, i wouldn't have the support of my parents (my dad, especially).
Yes, i know that studies is my business, &whatever parents think/feel shouldn't impose too big an obstacle in my decision making process. But, i really want to do smth i have a strong interest in, &i also want their support. I want the best of both worlds. :\
Ahhh! D: Why must we all grow up? ):
Sure, part of me can't wait for my new chapter of life to unleash, so i can probably start afresh &hopefully led a better &happier life. But the other, &probably bigger, part of myself hates to move on. ): I just want to stay at where i am, &watch the clouds go by.
(: Thanks friend. I know i'll have your support in everyway.
Right now, i'm still facing the crossroads, i'm still afraid to make the first step, i'm still stuck in the mud, i'm still hesitating, i'm still....
But i guess i'll make my first step soon. (: &i do hope it's a correct one!

Regarding ____.
D: A big fat sad face.
I need to throw it out of the window. Well, it's not a choice actually. It's what everything makes me to.
Yes. I need answers. Badly, in fact.
But i won't ask. Hahah, i'm very stubborn huh? Mm idk. I jsut feel that some stones are better left unturned. Cos the truth mught hurt, a thousand/million times worse!

Hahah, so please put on your gloves &even mask (if you need one).
I guess sometimes, when you're having a running nose, &you've gloves on. It's a chore trying to clean your nose using tissue paper, yes yes? Hahah! :D
Numb your cheeks? Oh, sopeaking of cheeks! Do you have rosy cheeks already? So cute! Hahah, can't wait to pinch you! :D :D
Heehee! Awh, you're so sweet! You want to smash that aircon for me! :D
Okay, okay. For you, i'm gonna smash winter okay! Just for you. :D
But you gotta give me time, while i try to figure out how to smash winter. Lol!

So, what are you busy with recently? Projects &more projects?
Been out trying to explore your city already?
I went ntu &sim open houses with my classmates today! (: It's a horrifying day, cos the weather was shitz. ): Oh, i saw yunxing at nus open hse too! She changed quite alot. Hahah.
Speaking of nus open hse, i dropped by this morning to visit my coleagues linger around before i need to meet my friends. Hahah, &i'll be going back there tmr for the open hse itself with my classmates again. &after tmr, it'll be monday already. Which means i need to go nus for work.
Walao! D:

Here's smth to share:

When life presents you with lemons, squeeze them into people's eyes!

Hahah, something really whacky i read from elsewhere. (:
I'm missing you! Muacks!

2009-03-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

:)
It's been awhile since I update ler!
I'm sorry.
It's like the internet here abit sot sot de. We'll tend to get dc after awhile, or no internet at all. Sometimes really feel quite fed up, but what to do? All I can say is, I have to get used to that ba :)
It's like second week of school ler, projects are coming back again. Sigh, it's like I've just cleared that pile of projects back in Sg and I've to deal with another pile of projects coming my way. Lols. Abit ironic yea?

I'm glad you had that awesome dinner with your friends. It feels good having people around you to chat about stuff under the sun right?
Well, I'm missing the company of you. Misses those times we had hotdog bun in ikea. Misses those hotdogbuns too. :(
Anyway, no doubt we're all growing up.
You, having to choose the path for your future.
Me, having to learn how to live by myself.

Fang, whenever you feel that you have lost your direction, feeling scare and helpless, close your eyes and take a deep breath. Let your heart lead you. I believe you can de.. :)
Don't be afraid to take the next step ok? It's good that you know where you want to go next & what you want to be, so be brave and take that step. Even if in the future you realised that "oh no! it's a wrong step", so what? you're still young and there's always another chance waiting for you somewhere sometimes, isn't? Able to be strong and move on in life is always better than staying stagnent in life what. :)
So, JIAYOU ok! TASZEMIAN will always be there to give you moral support in whatever you decide to do.
Be brave.
Be strong.

You were never square you know. Where's that flexible and round-in-thoughts de ChiaWenFang?
Lols.
I am always willing to give you the strength that you need. But do you really need the strength to forget? or to get the answers? :) (you know what i mean.)
If you need to throw ___ out of your window, you can't be impaitent what. Let time throw him out, just get on with life.
If you want answers, ask and i believe you'll be given ^^
Best friends since once upon a time will always be there for you!

Hmm, talking about weather, I don't know for the other parts of China, But i know for sure that the weather in Wuhan is abit sot sot de. It was getting warming the past few days and yet today, it rained and the temperature dropping back to below 10degree C.
It's insane right?
But I think I've got my training against the cold since the day I've reached Wuhan. So now i'm still feeling alright against the cold.
It's just the WIND. Runs a cold chill down my spine. Numbs my cheeks and fingers :(
Sigh.

You better wrap yourself up when you're in that "ice-cube".
If you caught a cold, I'll be the one smashing tat aircon when I get back Sg. Lols. :)

Cheers chia, 113moredays and i'll be back in Sg.
Miss me wor~

2009-03-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

Hello dear!
Busy with schoolwork/projects lately?
In the midst of everything that may be suffocating you, please don't forget to take a breather! (: &of cos, take care of yourself too!

Some of my friends came over for dinner last night. :D
It's pretty awesome. We were talking about alot of stuff, &then we mentioned that it's so weird. Out of a sudden, the topics discussed over the dining table becomes what university/courses to take, how's our future going to be, etc. Instead of the normal cliche stuff like what tv programs to watch, what are we going to do later, etc.
Seems like we're all really growing up, without a doubt! ):

How about you? One of my friend got attachment in china too, &she said the weather recently turn for the worst! :O Rain with snow, wind with wind. Haiyo! Why so jialat?
How about the area in china you are staying?
Singapore weather's been pretty tame &nice recently. (: It's more of the aircon in my office. Someone's trying to make the whole office turn into an ice cube i suppose. FREEZING. D:
I'll whack the aircon shut one day (if i have the courage). &then i'll whack the person who's sabotaging the temperature control. Heehee! (:

Some of my friends have already planned out where they'll be ehading towards in life (ie univerity, overseas studies, etc). Yet i'm still in the mud, sticking around, with no plans in my head. ): I really dont know what i want in life. :\ Ahhh. D:
I mean, i do have ideas of where i want to go, &what i want to be. But i'm just afraid to take the next step. Cos i'm not really sure if that's what i really want in life. I dwant to take a wrong step. ):
Going for open houses this coming weekends, hopefully i'll be able to have some inspiring thoughts &i'll have a clear mind of what i want to be in future. :D Wish me luck!
But for now, i'm still in square one, i suppose.

Speaking of square one, i'm still stuck in the square one (for the ______ issue).
It's all easier said than done. By saying i'm going to forget everything, throw everything out of the window. It isn't an easy job. ): Cos i've still got those buring questions stuck inside of me, yearning for answers.
Ahhh, but i still need to get over everything, right? ): Move ahead, wenfang. Move ahead. You'll give me strength, right? (:
Mm, it's not want to, it's have to.

2009-03-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

(: Thanks dear! You made me feel so loved! :D
I really miss you, (x infinity).
Hurry come back soon! So we can go Ikea eat hot dog bun, okay? ((:

Mm, maybe i've recovered.
But maybe, subconsciously, i haven't.
It still matters alot, when people mentioned to me about resuts. It's still the insercurity i feel in me, when i know i don't have what it takes to fully secure a position in the local university, &it still makes me sad somehow when i think about my results.
I mean, sure. I know jolly well that brooding over it, &being upset certainly wouldn't help me change my results for the better. Plus, i know from the efforts that i've given in during As, i know i shouldn't expect too much.
Aiyah, sometimes. It really isn't the grades that hurting. It's more of having to bear the responsibility of bringing disappointment to my family, my teachers &myself.
I did it once during O levels. &i did it all over again now with my A level resuts.

Really, a part of me want to be proud of what i scored. Cos afterall, i earned it with my own efforts &all.
But a bigger part of me felt ashamed. :\ Ahhh.
Contradictions, yknow. ):

Anyways, it's great to hear that the temperature is raising over there in china! :D
Hahah, so i guess, no more snow? ):
Hey, put up more photos! :D
Found any cheap CD shops? Go attack them, okay? Hahah.

I'm glad you've taken the first step, in growing up.
Leaving singapore for a foreign country isn't a big deal.
But leaving singapore for a foreign country for 5 months is a really big deal.

好可惜，在你这一次的人生journey上，我不能在你身旁支持着你，鼓励着你，和安慰着你。只能在新加坡默默祝福着你，希望你在中国一切顺心，一切平安。
但是，我希望你能知道，although 我不在你身旁，谢汶芳永远，永远都会记得你。
因为她每天都有想你哦！ (:

2009-03-07T22:29:00.004+08:00

虽然说你两年前踏入初级学院时就觉得你不属于那个地方，
但是你毕竟也在那里过了充满欢笑、泪水、快乐和伤心的地方度过了两年，不是吗？

撇开那些一点害怕，一点犹豫，一点担忧，勇往直前地冲下去吧！
看别人有那份真实感却觉得自己总是缺乏那种感觉，对不对？
千万别哦！真实感、安全感都是自己给自己的，不是吗？
当自己告诉自己是会幸福的，总有一天，你就会得到幸福。
当自己告诉自己can make it，总有一天，你也一定can make it。
无论你在外面对多大的风浪，面对多残酷的社会，
我一定会在这里暖起你的心窝。
不用太感动哦。朋友不应该这样吗？更何况我们不是普通的朋友嘛！:)

擦干眼泪，
深深地呼一口气，
美美的明天就是你的！

说起在中国的生活，我也只能说我已经（应该？）慢慢地习惯这里的生活了吧。那种没有父母在身边打点我的一切的生活，那种没有父母呵护的生活，那种一出门就知道怎么到自己的目的地的生活，那种没有熟悉的人、事、物在身边的生活……
就算还没习惯，我还有4个月能让自己习惯。相信自认生命力那么强的陈思敏应该不会那么容易放弃的！
所以，你也不能放弃好吗？因为你的我的bffl！
加油哦！你敢放弃我马上飞回来打你的屁股:)

The temperature is rising ler! Today's is like 17°C? I hope the temperature will remain like this all the while when i'm here in china! haha. I heard that it's very scary during Wuhan's Summer. Roar! can blow out fire. haha :P

There's indeed some communication problems between me and mel. but as usual, we're always like that aren't we? :)
it's better now le. Don't worry!

And i think ur chinese standard's still there lo! Maybe you just not used to typing hanyupinying ba. But trust me! You're still good :) My friends also always complain my hanyupinying not good, but nvm lo. Slowly learn lo. kaka!
谢谢你的用心。
谢谢你的耐心。

想着你的思敏…想我哦！

2009-03-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

成绩拿回来了。
考得好差。 ):
觉得自己好笨。D:

一踏进初级学院，总觉得是个不属于我的地方。但我也不知不觉中在这里生存了两年。
这两年，有欢笑，也有泪水。有快乐的时光，也有伤心的时候。
算了。都已经过去了。
现在的我，应该振作起来，向未来迈近吧。
一点害怕，一点犹豫，一点担忧。
我经常问自己: “为什么别人的未来看起来那么的真实，而我的却那么没真实感？”
嘿，放手一搏吧。
不管这么样，你还会在我身边的，对吧？(:

希望你还习惯中国的生活。
Okay, forget it szemian. My hanyupingyin is really bad. It took me close to an hour to complete the post last night y'know! ): Ahhh.
Back to point. I wish you're having fun in china. (:
I hope you've been taking care of yourself, keeping yourself warm in that freezing fridge country over there. &of cos, i hope you're enjoying your time with your friends.
Mm, i read your blog. Problems with mel? You can share with me any problems, here or email, okay? (: I'll be really glad to be your listening ear.

Take care my friend!

2009-03-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

思敏，现在人在中国的你还好吗？
那里是否依旧的冷？你在那里玩得开心吗?
(: 好想念你哦！好希望我们又能再一次出去玩，一起去 Ikea 吃 hot dog bun，一起出去逛街, 一起大声地笑。
我好喜欢和你在一起的感觉。那感觉很舒服。仿佛在那一瞬间，我变回了那真正的汶芳。在你面前，我无需刻意假装坚强。在你面前，我能够把那软弱的一面表现出来。我可以不用去想尽方法来hide我真正的身份。

嘿。说着说着，天突然下起了大雨。还好已经是晚上了，上着大雨的夜，睡觉也特别的舒服吧！
其实，我现在好害怕。):
明天就是会考成绩放榜的日子了。好希望你现在就能够在我身边。总觉得你的安慰和鼓励，比起任何一个人，都来的有效。

嘿。真希望明天永远也不要来。）：我真的很害怕。
怕辜负了老师们对我的期望。怕自己辜负了爸妈对我的期望。更害怕的是，怕自己对不起自己。怕我又得带着遗憾，从校门口离开。
好多复杂的心情。好可怕。）：
我真的希望自己是个小孩。唯一的担忧，也就是下一个糖果何时来。
是时候该长大了吧。是时候该学会如何去面对问题，而不是一再的逃避。是时候该为将来想一想了。
对了，是时候该长大了。

希望你在中国的明天，能够过的很好。（：
也希望我在新加坡的明天，也能够过的很好。
就这样，我带着即不安又害帕的心情，要上床睡觉了。
晚安!
窗外的大雨仍然没停。

2009-03-05T22:05:00.002+08:00

CHIAWENFANG!

First of all, let your dearest bffl me wish you all the best for you collecting your results tmr! :)
it's tmr right? Lols. GOOD LUCK!
Though everything 已成定局, there'll always be a better tomorrow :)

Yup! the snow's really beautiful! :)
but the temperature after the snow is like SOOOO COLD!
Brrr....haha.
but getting to see snow, i'm already very satisfied le. woohoo!
How is your first snowing experience? Romantic?

My mom told me about the terrible weather in Sg.
It's like the sky anyhow rain de right. Scold the sky. tsk-tsk O.o

Hmm, i think shall we keep in contact using this blog? It's like only the first week of my school and i have projects piling up ler.
wth right? Lols.
and I think all those modules i'm taking have exams de lo.
sigh.
worried.
It's quite difficult to have fun in this COLD weather ba. But i'll try :)
its like straight after lessons, we'll all rush back to the hostel for cover and for toilet.
Lols. really don't want to go toilet in school.(though i went alot times today :P)
Today my teacher gave us some places for us to find nice food and places to shop and stuff. Hopefully we'll get to visit those places soon!

It tough living out alone without parents and stuff.
Usually parents will help to settle those 零零碎碎 stuff right, buy this buy that.
So without parents, we've to settle those stuff ourselves, do all those housework ourselves, buy this buy that.
it's like bloody hell tiring lar.
Lols. but ok lar. it's all new experience, right? Right!

If you think no point thinking about that guy, then throw him out of your window! Alright? :)
Carry on that love-hate relationship with your work ba. Maybe you'll miss those times of you working when you're not.
Treasure those times ba :)

That's all for now, sweet! GOODLUCK!

2009-03-04T10:29:00.003+08:00

WHOA!
I cant sign into our hotmail account, idk why! ):
Ahhhh!

Anyways, the snow is so pretty! :D Hahah, especially to people like us, who lived in Singapore. We are in summer/spring the whole year long! ):

Past few days, weather in Singapore is crap!
Everywhere i go, i try to make sure i'm able to squeeze a brolly into my bag. Hahah, you seriously wouldn't know when it'll rain! &when it rains, it don't just rain. It pours, man!
Plus, the rain's seriously so heavy, when you look out of the window, you see nothing. Tsk!

Nolah! No need to msg me! &you dont msg me, okay! It's so expensive! Hahah, we'll just keep in touch via the internet. (:
Are you having fun in china yet? Other than the cold, &everything. Please have fun!
How's studies &everything? Living with your hostel roommate, isit exciting &interesting? :D
Update me! (:

Life in Singapore for me isn't exactly enjoyable. ):
Work's the same, mundane &dull. I have a love-hate relationship with my job. Hahah. Which is annoying.
That guy? Hahah, idk man. I think time will fade everything bah. (: No point thinking about it already, i guess.
&it's officially announced that results day would be this friday.
OH NO! ):

2009-03-03T22:30:00.004+08:00

It snowed! On 020309.

Chia, it's cold here.
Chilling up everypart of my body, and i'm afraid even when the cold goes away, my heart will remain frozen. I don't know why, but feeling kinda emotional now.

Anyway, it snowed yesterday on the first day of school for me in Wuhan. It's rather cool 'cos it's like the first time i see snow? haha. really quite romantic you know. but after the snowing, it's freaking cold! Sheesh! haha.

And you know what, i've been waiting to sms you. But there's something wrong with my china SIM card lo. The man that sells all those phone prepaid card say need wait(earliest is first of april la! it's like wth.) for the main company there to do something before I can sms international. wtf. o.O
Really hope they can do something about it. QUICK.

Anyway, how's your work? and that guy. Sort out your thinking le? :)

You know, it's aren't that cheap and affordable to shop in Wuhan. Cos it's living standards quite high. (but still can't be compared with Sg larr.) but still, their stuff here's rather ex lo.

Sigh. I shall travel around to more places to search for cheap and good goods (typical Singaporean). Wakaka! :)

Show you more next time!

Update me with your life in SINGAPORE!

Love &time

2009-03-02T11:38:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

Period of 8years spent knowing each other, understanding each other, standing by each other. Being there for each other, to pull each other off the ground when one fell. To give sound advices which helped each other get over the setbacks &move on with life.
8years of lending listening ears to each other, offering that firm steady shoulders &assuring hug &hand grips. 8 years of time, spent trying to know each other more.
8years spent loving each other &embracing the friendship between us two.
(: What a wonderful 8 years spent with you. (:

2009-03-01T08:59:00.004+08:00

Sweet! I'm sorry i missed your call that day. Was rushing to go in the plane.
XD

How's it over there in Singapore? 你还好吗?
It's really cold here. In Wuhan. It's like almost everyday (so far counting from the day i reached wuhan, it's 3days :)) the temperature is under 5degree C. Brrr...

I'm missing the sunshine in Singapore.
I'm missing the warmth in Singapore.
and of cos, I'm missing the CHIAWENFANG of Singapore.

Still getting along well in life?
I went to one of the bigbig shopping mall (which they say is 超市场) to shop for my daily necesscities and some household stuff. In the end, there's really too much things to buy or we couldn't really control our 购买欲, LOL, we bought so much things that we have trouble carrying it back ourselves. and you know, we have to walk all the way back to our hostel (which is like so darn far!) in the rain and COLD. Sheesh!
当时的我不仅说了这一句话：“爸爸快来载我！”
I think back in Sg, everything's so convinent that we tend to take things for granted ba.

希望
在这个陌生的环境，
在这个陌生的城市，
我能成长。

希望
在那个一切熟悉的环境，
在熟悉的家人朋友身边的你，
能过得快乐幸福。
还有，记得想我。:)

Lastly, thank you for setting up this blog. ILOVEYOU!
让我们一起努力地经营这个部落格吧！

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2009-02-27T08:39:00.000+08:00

): You left, approx 36 minutes ago.
I called yet i couldn't get you. ):
Which means i didn't get to talk to you before you leave singapore for a long period of 5 months.
):

You will come back soon. Right?
You will come back soon, right.

Miss you truckloads!

xoxo,
wenfang

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2009-02-26T15:06:00.002+08:00

): You're gonna leave singapore tmr! &it's only less than 24 hours! ):
Ahhh, friend friend friend! We'll stay close, right? We won't drift apart, right?

I complained to some of my friends, regarding the fact that you're leaving for overseas attachment for 4months plus.
Then one of them told me this, "Aiyah, can survive lah! You've survived 18years already, what's 5months to you?"
I paused awhile, &then i went, "A big deal."
Y'see, although i've survived 18 years, but since primary 5, you were there for me. (:
You were there to exchange letters with me, although we're in different classes in secondary 1. You were there by me during each classes during secondary 2. You continued to be there for me during secondary 3 &4, even though we're all rushing &mugging for O levels.
You were there for me, whe i met setbacks in many aspects. You were always there to wipe my tears, pull me up from the ground, &guide me along this tough journey of life.

So, what's 5months without you in sinapore?
A BIG DEAL. ):

Now that's you're gonna leave for an overseas attachment. I need you to know i'll really miss you! ): Alot, alot (x infinity).
Ahhhh. Please take care of yourself in china!

xoxo,
wenfang